I love getting organized – everything in its place, squared away. But deep down, I think it really has more to do with control. In that, I want to control chaos before it overtakes me. And getting organized is my way of tackling my fear.
That strategy works for the most part. Except when I can’t find something, that’s when my fear rares its ugly head. Imagine: I know that I have just the right thing for the situation, and yet I could not put my fingers on it. Aaargh!
As my frustration starts to build and pressure mounts, a vicious cycle spirals into my worst nightmare – the fear of losing control. I would ultimately resign to giving up the search, much to my chagrin. And the item may eventually turn up after the fact.
Fortunately, I am learning to minimize my stuffs and getting rid of unnecessary belongings. All in an effort to keep my life simpler. By the way, I don’t have the same issue when it comes to people. Because people are impossible to control. It’s futile even to try. That’s why I only focus on things.
Do you have/know any disguised fear?