Three year of the Covid-19 pandemic, one year of the war in Ukraine, and the passing of my mother have me re-visiting the statement (and the tile of this series), “Alone but not lonely.”
When both of her parents passed away, my cousin said that she felt like an “instant orphan.” For the emotional tug was so strong it ripped the foundation off of her. My dad passed more than 10 years ago, and my mom 10 days ago. As it happened, I felt a loss but not like an orphan. I suppose everyone’s perspective is unique.
To me, we all will meet the same fate. Only a matter of when. So the passing is not an issue, but how well we lived our life matter. Both my parents lived a long life (90 years). I am blessed to have had them so long. One day, sooner or later I know I have to let go.
And I’m grateful for my own family. But as mentioned, life’s impermanence will ring its bell, and then it will be my time to go. Will I be ready? Let me answer using a marathon analogy – I maybe alone but not lonely.
I will be in good company.
My friend, are you living well?
Part 2, here.
I’m sorry for your loss. My mother died just about 3 years ago.
Between COVID and her passing, I feel different.
It took me at least a year before I stopped thinking about death every day. Sometimes often during the day.
After my mother died I realized what I knew all along, no one will ever love you like your mother. You are her heart and soul and she will always love, encourage and see the best in you. At least my mother did.
I’m comfortable being alone and not feeling lonely. I can do that.
What gets me is feeling alone with other people. It’s the loneliest feeling.
Yes Andy. Moms are special. On “feeling alone with other people” it’s a tough place to be. If there is any consolation I can offer, that is we are all connected. Through this planet and nature If not through others.
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